Change

It has been some time since I last posted. Someone has made me realized that I only focus on negative aspects of my life. So my new goal is to write my blog at least 3x a week and list 3 "blessings" in my life. Apart from that, I am doing okay. The Mr. Handyman company I had a problem with has been resolved with them paying the plumber. I would not have minded court--maybe I could have gotten an idea of whether or not law is right for me??? My main focus right now is to have a career that is related to the healthcare field. It is a booming career, but competitive! If I do not get in to medical school, I will not be too depressed because I will become a NP or CRNA.

Currently, I am taking the Kaplan MCAT online sessions. I need to work hard and get a top score in order to be qualified for medical school! My goal is to get a 33, that would be competitive for UW. I do not want to stay in-state, but the best chance I have is at UW. I would like to move out of Washington and move to somewhere warmer. Southern California sounds super nice right now! Maybe that could be my motivation to study for the MCATS!!!! 

My relationship with my boyfriend is a tad rocky. I think I put him in a bad mood with all my pessimism, but I just cannot help it. I feel like I'm in a hole I cannot get myself out of. I want to be happy with my life and have no worries, but that would be something like Heaven. I guess I need to look the other side of the rainbow? I just feel that I'm losing him slowly...but I can try to change, right? 

I wish I could visit the Woodland Park zoo right now! I get super excited about the zoo! I love animals!!! Especially, the meerkats!!!! Queen B lives on forever!!!

3 "Blessings"

1. I'm ahead of my MCAT prep/hw for the first time

2. People that I thought didn't like me anymore actually want to hang out with me.

3. My cold is almost treated!

Dreading the Future

It is a bit difficult to start my first entry in this blog! Perhaps it is due to the fact that I do not like to write...or the fact that no one will read this. Right now I am in such a pessimistic state that it puts me in a depressed mood. I cannot get out of this runt I am. I'm also lacking the motivation to continue. Do I really want this? What will I do if I fail at this? I feel worse not disappointing myself, but letting my parents down. Whichever, I do not enjoy the prerequisite classes I'm taking at BC. Especially, Ochem because there is no real instruction by the professor and she uses other professor's tests. This means that her tests are impossible to get a sufficient grade unless you find the tests that she has been using. Another issue, my parents are attempting to start an AFH. I have to help them with this because my mom is unable to do this alone. Just a lot of things have been occurring in my life and it really bothers me. I wish I lived with my Camels. He helps me calm down or talk to. Camels is a great snuggly man too! I do not what I would do without him. He loves me so much and takes care of me! I love you Camels!